My ex-boyfriend, was horrible to me. He used to shout and swear at me, humilitate me, pressure me into doing drugs and going to things I didn't want to go to, tell me I was f.cked in the head (I've been suffering depression from childhood trauma), told lies to me about one of my friends and vice versa to weaken our relationship, told me what to think, do and how to feel, and was emotionally inept. He told me that unless we stopped arguing (i.e. I stopped agreeing with him) then we didn't have a future. And at a critical moment in my life, let me down really badly.
But, we had some good times too, mostly revolving around parties, yes, but he also did take me out to a few nice places, pampered me on my birthday and it made me so happy when I was making him happy.
Why do I miss him so much? He was never 'there' for me when I needed him, but I know in his own way he loved me. I just feel really empty without him, and want him here so badly. How do I stay strong?
2007-06-15
03:38:43
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Marriage & Divorce