Don't get me wrong, I love my kids (ages 9 and 4).
But I absolutely hate motherhood! I feel like a psycho for feeling this way, but gosh, there is so much I can't do anymore. I am just not into Barbie, Playstation, board games, cartoons. I would rather be out on the motorcycle with my hubby, shopping, riding my bicycle, dancing the night away, etc.
I am not a bad mother, my 4 yr old is smartest in her class. They are both well behaved (mostly!) healthy, and loved. I wrestle with them, read to them, play with them do all the things a mother should do, and I DO love them, but something is missing....I just don't feel the "mother instinct" that would make me jump in front of a train to save them.
Could it be that I suffered post partum depression with both of them and somehow "missed" something? Please don't tell me to get counseling, been there, done that. I've taken a parenting class read several books, but cant find anything except how great and wonderful its supposed to be.
2006-12-30
16:52:26
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