To whom it may concern:
Everyday for the last 7.5 years of my life has been an adventure. Not a bad one, but not a good one either. I have a daughter whom I love very much that means the world to me, but after 7,5 years of life, that is about it. I am not proud of my marriage nor am I happy about it. Not that it has been a bad marriage, it has just been a very dull excitmentless marriage between two people who are EXTREMELY different. My finances are a frickin nightmare! I have been foreclosed upon, repossessed and called 24/7 by bill collectors who want there money. I am 26 years old. I feel as though I have been an adult my whole life. I just want to slow down, and see what life could be like if I tried to experience it and enjoy it more. If I could enjoy the simpler things in life and learn to appreciate what I have and not cry about what I want. If I could just start all over that would be so fantastic, but I can't. No one can. We can start new, but not all over.
So, that is what I want! I want to start new. I want to look in the mirror one morning and see a woman that I am proud of. See a woman that I can look right in the eyes and say "you go girl." I want to be a woman that my daughter can idolize and say I want to be just like her when I grow up.
Unfortunately, that means that I am going to have to be selfish and move on. Start a new life without being married. I love my husband dearly and I care for him, but I am not in love with him. I do not want to hurt him, and I do not want to make his life miserable, but I want mine to be better. The only way to do that is to start completely new.
I would love to hear what others have to say about this. Please let me know your thoughts and opinions. Please be honest as I am not looking for your help or asking you what to do, I have already made up my mind what to do. I am simply asking for your opinions.
2007-09-27
16:13:40
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17 answers
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luvin the life
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