I was verbally and emotionally abused by my stepfather for the latter half of my childhood. He never did molest me physically but he did make lewd comments and insisted to my mother I was having sex when I was only 12, which I was not. Sometimes he would get drunk and actually crawled into bed with me a couple of times, I guess he thought I was my mother. I was always worthless, stupid, a **** and a ***** from the time I was 9, according to him. My older brother left because he had the option, but I didn't. I could never do anything right, and I never learned to trust myself or my instincts. That has gotten me into a lot of trouble in my adult life. I kept quitting college, because I was convinced I couldn't do it, I wasn't good enough. I married a man that abused me and my children, but I left him and we still do not have a place of our own. I am convinced I am a bad mother, so they often stay with my mom, but she thankfully divorced my stepdad a long time ago. How can I heal myself?
2007-10-10
08:48:12
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scottishbeauty
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