My Wife has a male "best friend" she met at work years ago and last year I started getting jealous and suspicious of their relationship. Our relationship was going through some hard times, I was working too hard and was depressed about an illness I found out I had and then, once I started having these feelings of jealousy I started to distance myself from her instead of talking to her like I should of.
Well my suspicions did end up being correct, my wife had a relationship with this "best friend". It was an on and off thing for about 5 months and was not an intentional affair. She would meet him and cry about how bad her relationship at home was and they ended up kissing. They both said they regretted it after it happened, but then it happened multiple times in that 5 month period. I started to spy on her email and found out that they chatted and emailed back and forth a lot, I don't know if they even believed they were having an affair, but it was painfully obvious too me.
She finally confessed it to me back in May, I think she wanted to tell me and couldn't, but I also told her I found the emails and she had no choice but to tell me.
We had some pretty big blowouts, but have agreed to work on our marriage. The biggest thing that bothers me is that she wants to stay friends with this guy. I asked her, and she agreed not too see him or talk to him for a while. But every now and then she has these breakdowns that she doesn't get to talk to her friend, it always ends in tears and I give a small concession and let her email him at work for professional reasons only, then I say it's Ok to ask how he is, but nothing too detailed. I am feeling like a doormat. I want her to realize that having this guy still around is like leaving the knife still in my chest, but she says she doesn't have any other friends and she feels so lonely with out him around.
She says she loves me more than anything and it's not a competition between us, but I am afraid to ask "him or me" because I shouldn't have to give her an ultimatum and she is not a child and should be able to make her own decisions
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I know the affair was a stupid mistake and I believe she regrets it, but am I wrong to think she should let this guy go forever? Should I be stronger and let them rebuild their trust with me? We have three small children and I don't want to give up what we have, but at the same time I need to do something to stop feeling the way I do right now.
2007-10-11
05:10:20
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