I've just gotten through a little more than a month of deployment.
To start out, I hate the war. My husband and I both hate the army. We hate the way of life. We regret that he signed a contract to be in the army. Worst decision we could have made.
But I love him, immensely, I have no interest in leaving him, and he is quitting the armed services for good at the end of the contract. For now, I have 14 months of being on my own. I'm a pre-med student. I have a lot to do. But everything I do, everywhere I go, I hate my life. I hate coming home to no one. I hate waking in the morning. I hate breathing. I rarely smile, and when I do, it's empty and meaningless. I have plenty of activities. I try to talk to friends. I try to be positive. I try and try and try EVERYTHING and I HATE MY LIFE. By the end of this deployment my soul will be drained dry from despair. I never had a family (not even as a kid) before I had my husband, and I realize it's all that counts.
What the hell do I do now?
2007-11-07
11:37:19
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Aia S
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Marriage & Divorce