Both my husband and me are very good looking couple in our twenties; my husband has a body of steel. Anyway, we had a party in our house and I was drunk and did a strange thing. I was laughing and joking with my next door neighbour, a guy in his mid fifties and very overweight however is redeeming feature is contagious humour.
His humour sometimes involves sexual innuendo and it is very amusing, anyway to cut to the chase he jokingly put his hand on my leg and I laughed and told him not top stop, he didn’t’! We were in the kitchen alone and I just seem to let him, it was sort of gross but within moments of being fingered I had the most intense orgasm.
For about a week after the event I was masturbating continually about this. It was both repulsive and exciting. Without going into more unnecessary details I have been shagging this fat guy frequently for the past month. It isn’t love and my husband doesn’t suspect, for the obvious reason that he wouldn’t think it possible that I would even consider this man attractive. The thing is I don’t! Quite the opposite.
I have had more orgasms with this guy in short space of time than ever with my very attractive husband. What the hell is wrong with me? It’s almost like a drug I keep telling my-self one more time and its finished? Yet I keep going back for more. Please tell me I am not that strange
I don’t even feel is if I am cheating, I am basically using this guy as a vibrator and he knows it. I am not looking to redeem or excuse myself for my behaviour; it is just the irrationality of it that’s got me flustered. Why do I find this so stimulating? Is it the grossness of it? I know he is human being but he is so fat I feel depraved. He is six feet plus and must be at least 20 stone and I am only 5 feet and skinny, he picks me up as if I was a rag doll and I feel so helpless. At first it I only gave him oral sex and he used his finger on me but eventually you want more, he doesn’t even have that big a cock and its uncut and slightly smelly, but I still seem to get a weird sexual gratification from doing oral with him.
There is no point of going into all the disgusting things that I have now done with him, writing them down only makes the situation worse.
It makes no sense, my husband although not tall has a fantastic physic, and most women would kill to get at him. But me, I seem to get my thrill easier from a fat middle aged man, why? And will I grow out of it? And am I the only one like this?
And I can’t talk to my friends about.
Yours completely irrational.
2006-11-06
06:28:00
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