Why do I have to fall so fast?
It's not so easy for me to get up after I fall.
There are two guys I like, But I like one a little more.
Oh, god, I feel like one of the biggest whores.
All he wanted was to be loved by me.
And I liked him back at one point in time.
I hope he doesn't read this.
Because then I'd feel bad.
Later on I'll probably realize what I really had.
No matter which one I choose, Still I will feel bad.
I would be happier with one more than the other.
There is a guilty conscience in my head.
Because I don't like my boyfriend much anymore.
I believe I'm living Hell, until it freezes over.
I gotta do what I wanna do.
Between me and my boyfriend.
Between me and you.
I think it's over.
I said I wasn't going back to love until I find what's true.
But I rushed into what I thought was true way, way too fast.
If you havn't guessed it already.
My boyfriend is the one I like less.
I'm afraid if I break up with him that I will break his heart and I know what that feels like.
And I don't want him to go through that again.
I don't want to live my life pleasing others though.
I want to please myself too.
Me and this guy that I like more, kissed on Friday.
THAT is why I feel like a liar, cheater, know-nothing, and worthless person on this Earth.
I like this guy so much, though.
So INCREDIBLY much.
My best friend hates me now.
She likes this guy that I like.
She says that she's too fat and ugly to get anyone she wants.
She claims that I can get any man on this earth that I want.
I know better than that though.
I know that I can't.
But this one person that I really, really like likes me back too.
So why shouldn't I go out with him.
He likes me, not her.
But I don't want to lose TWO really good friends just to have this one boy.
I'm so confused.
But I think I know what to do.
I hope...
2006-11-06
07:05:18
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