Can you help me?

Question

Why do I have to fall so fast?

It's not so easy for me to get up after I fall.

There are two guys I like, But I like one a little more.

Oh, god, I feel like one of the biggest whores.

All he wanted was to be loved by me.

And I liked him back at one point in time.

I hope he doesn't read this.

Because then I'd feel bad.

Later on I'll probably realize what I really had.

No matter which one I choose, Still I will feel bad.

I would be happier with one more than the other.

There is a guilty conscience in my head.

Because I don't like my boyfriend much anymore.

I believe I'm living Hell, until it freezes over.

I gotta do what I wanna do.

Between me and my boyfriend.

Between me and you.

I think it's over.

I said I wasn't going back to love until I find what's true.

But I rushed into what I thought was true way, way too fast.

If you havn't guessed it already.

My boyfriend is the one I like less.

I'm afraid if I break up with him that I will break his heart and I know what that feels like.

And I don't want him to go through that again.

I don't want to live my life pleasing others though.

I want to please myself too.

Me and this guy that I like more, kissed on Friday.

THAT is why I feel like a liar, cheater, know-nothing, and worthless person on this Earth.

I like this guy so much, though.

So INCREDIBLY much.

My best friend hates me now.

She likes this guy that I like.

She says that she's too fat and ugly to get anyone she wants.

She claims that I can get any man on this earth that I want.

I know better than that though.

I know that I can't.

But this one person that I really, really like likes me back too.

So why shouldn't I go out with him.

He likes me, not her.

But I don't want to lose TWO really good friends just to have this one boy.

I'm so confused.

But I think I know what to do.

I hope...

My question is, what can I do? can anyone give me some GOOD advice?

Answer 1

Well Dear, at some point you have to do what would make you most happy. And if that's dumping your boyfriend, then dump your boyfriend. And if that's going with the other guy, then by all means go for him.
Your friend is going to be hurt for a bit but eventually she'll come around. You can't let some guy come between your friendship even if that means one of you gets him and the other doesn't.
Boyfriends are a fragile thing, they've all be burnt before, or at least the good ones, and you want to do everything you can to protect them from that, even after you break up. It won't be easy to accomplish what would make you the most happy, but the things that are truly worth it rarely are.
I would come clean with your boyfriend before or after you guys break up about kissing the other guy because it's a whole hell of a lot worse hearing it from someone else. Especially if you've been broken up for a while. It re-opens all those things that you've tried so desperately to fix and make better.

At some point, maybe tomorrow, maybe 5 years from now; everything that you should have done now will be clear, but for now, do what will be best for you because you have to sleep with you at night and no one else.

S

Answer 2

Yo....I didn't read the entire message you wrote...but what the other guy said was freaking hilarious, about I didn't know this was poetry night.

Answer 3

Try talking to your school counselor.

Answer 4

damn talk about broken fantasys look just have a 3som and call it that

Answer 5

wow u need to deal wit this

Answer 6

pray.it really works

Answer 7

i was unaware is was amatuer poetry hour...

Answer 8

Sooo... what r u asking???