I am a 19 year old girl who is extremely depressed. I have never felt so low. Like I can't find anything redeeming about the world or myself. My father died at 54 this summer and I am feeling so sad. I feel like I will always have this boring, trivial, ugly life. See, I am also unhappy about my appearance. I was a real ugly duckling when I was younger, so I don't feel confident now that I've (supposedly) changed. I am at the point where I hate my body so much that I WANT to wear it down and cause it pain. I want to be a writer and actress, especially an actress, but am so eaten up with insecurity about it. I don't know if I CAN act and I am terrified of really, truly seeing what I look like on film. I want so much to be ok and happy and pretty and leading an exciting life. I just don't see it in the cards... I don't know why I posted this, but I just needed to let the world know how horribly, terribly, bad I feel.
2006-12-07
13:20:12
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Blackadder
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