Hi, i'm 20 years old and my life is pretty much full of diassapointments and depression. I don't have any friends, because i feel unmotivated because of my weight (140 kilos). I started guitar at 17 and my hopes of becoming a rockstar/jazzer is getting crushed since i started so late in my life and every profession musician i know started in their early teens and younger. My family trys to make me feel like i'm somthing i really not (good to have a positive family i guess) and it makes me so upset to think that i would let them down when im older. I have started smoking, and drinking, and the innocent shy me i once knew is pretty much screwed. Sometimes i wish i was dead, but me being really close to my mother i want to be there for her until she passes away. I feel like i'm nothing but a wasted life. I'm also not very intelligent, and i constantly try and study and get interested in intellectual things, but in the end i'm just stupid. (my iq is 90 somthing). What should i do?
2007-02-04
03:43:38
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