I pretty much hate myself right now and I think there's no point in even continuing living because I am unable to be happy and enjoy life. I'm on meds, so that's not the answer. I met someone great (I always meet great guys) and just like every other time once I start getting feelings, I push them away and make them hate me. Its like my brain is saying "I'll show you just how horrible I am before you can figure it out on your own". At this point I am like ready to kill myself b/c I feel like there's no point, all I do is make everyone around me miserable and I am always miserable no matter what I try. What the hell is wrong with me? I was basically abandoned as a child and I have been cheated on or lied to by all my relationships. I focus all my energy and time trying to be the most beautiful (which I know is not possible) b/c deep down I don't think I possess qualities that would make someone want to stay with me. If someone is a lost cause is there any reason to even try anymore?
2007-01-02
10:22:32
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Princess~C
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Mental Health