i have 2 boys, 3 and 5.
When my older one was born, i never bonded with him. I know it sounds horrible, but i offten wish i'd have had an abortion (and i don't believe in abortions, i was adopted).
When I got pregnant with my 3year old, i loved him instantly, from the moment i did the test.
It came so naturel...
Now, my 5 year old is trying so hard to get my love on a daily basis. He'll play up so he'll get into trouble, he'll throw himself at me when i hug him and just doesn't want to let go... i know he does it cause he knows i prefer my 3 year old, i try to hide it, but he's very smart...
I know i hug & kiss my younger son every opportunity i get, yet i have to force myself to remember him... I feel like a terrible mom cause i favor my younger child. How can i love my older son? How can i finally bond with him and care for him as much as i do for my baby?
Do you think it was caused by postpartum? How do i fix this???
Thank you for your help.
Melanie
2007-03-10
12:19:14
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