I'm too scared to live my life & I don't even know how to live it ...
I'm laying here trying to sleep, but my brain keeps comparing myself to this girl I barely know in nyc who has EVERYTHING I want ... i'm 19, quiet, never had a relationship (not that i realllly care about that), mainly i just feel like I'm just really negative & don't care about other people or ANYTHING ... I shut myself out from everything ...
The thing is, i LOOK normal ... im not scary looking/emo...
& i'm in college now .. and ive only made a couple friends blaaaa. I spent my entire time in highschool hiding [really insecure, didnt fit in, didnt WANT to fit in, got depressed from having no friends .. had no friends because i was depressed .. oh woeeee is me ... ],
and now i feel like i have to play a ridiculously hard game of catch-up ... finding out who i want to be / what my personality is / how to make friends / what i believe in.
I'm sick of this.
Anyone have similar experiences?
2007-09-23
17:37:16
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