I recently have begun feeling very depressed about something I heard about myself a few years ago. Here’s my story: About 4 years ago when I was 11, I’m 15 now. My Mom had brought a few of her lady friends over to our house to drink tea and talk about books, movies, and other stuff like she normally did. She would do this annually, but when I went up stairs into the kitchen for a snack I could over hear them all talking and laughing in the living room. I normally wouldn’t listen to what they were chatting about but I heard one of my moms friends saying about when she got married and had her first daughter, she said “I was on Birth Control for a while and I never remember missing a pill and found out I was a few weeks pregnant” Something like that, but then my mom replied to that and said that both me and my little brother were born even though my husband used a condom both times. I knew what sex and condoms were back when I was 11, but honestly I really didn’t think about it and so it didn’t seem to bother me that much. But recently for the past few months I have been coming here and reading what seems like dozens of stories about births happening due to Condom and Birth control failure. I can’t get over this depressing feeling of unwantedness, the fact that my parents never intended on having me and even took precautions to prevent me from being born. I never told this to my little brother and I’m glad I didn’t because I wouldn’t want him to feel the lack of self-esteem I feel. I know that my life isn’t worth any less then anyone else but I still feel this depression that I just can’t seem to get over. Any Advice or suggestions on how I can forget and move on would be greatly appreciated or if anyone else would like to share their own similar stories that would be great. One thing I want to say is that when I get married and have kids I don’t want any of them to be “accidentally” born because some piece of latex failed.
2007-09-01
09:49:37
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