My mom, has pushed me so hard that I feel driven away.My brother, is pushy and thinks that I do weird thing, I am on my guard, ready to stand up for myself, even though mostly he just gives a look, but when he does say something, it is rude.With my dad. As a teenager he was abusive and 'spanked' me and bruised me and was verbally abusive. Since then, he has changed so much.He has since married someone else and is really nice.But still as an adult, for years, he just seemed emotionally unavailable to me. I gave up trying.Now he seems to be getting 'softer' as he gets older.He seems to be making more of an effort to know my child and myself.But I just don't care as much anymore.Why?This is my family and I swing between missing what I wish we had... to feeling 'dead' and indifferent towards them.Just feeling... 'nothing'. I forget their birthdays, their anniversaries, to call... WHY? If blood is thicker than water, than why do I like my friends more? My dad is nice now and is ready.
2007-08-04
10:19:36
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