for the past 3 years i have had no income and cannot buy anything for anybody for christmas, it really hurts and it feels like i have failed my boys. i tell them i can't get them anything, not even a card, they say don't worry mom it's ok, we understand, but...i feel awful when christmas does roll around and i can't. i don't even want to celebrate or even go to where it is at. i just want to be left alone. do they REALLY understand, or are they just saying that to try to make me feel better? the reason i'm asking is cuz: i tell mom the same thing, and i live with her so she knows my financial status, and she kinda lets me know in her own twisted way that it does bother her! she'll just blurt it out in front of everyone that i can't buy any gifts (way to go mom to make me feel like crap) i know it kills me i can't, i just can't help but wonder if my boys feel the same. now that soon it will be here, again, i get very depressed & somewhat unaproachable about the whole thing.
2006-11-01
15:25:28
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serenitie51
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