Just need someone's advice or someone to talk to...?

Question

Please please only serious responses. I'm 18 and just really having a tough time at home. I've never been depressed before, but I can assume this has to be as close to depression as someone can be. I have no relationship with my Dad, but I never have due to his alcoholism and it doesn't bother me. I've always been close to my mom up until the past 6 months or so. Everything is so hard between us. Everything turns into an argument and she believes I never feel bad about anything that happens when truthfully I end up crying myself to sleep more often than not. I really have heavily considered suicide. Last night in the midst of a 4 hour argument I told my mother this. Her only response was a sarcastic remark along the lines of being mentally ill and needing to be in a psych ward. She doesn't really doesn't understand. I need someone to talk to. I have no one except her. I apologize for all the rambling.

Thanks SO much everyone for your answers so far. You don't realize how much I appreciate them. Right now I'm really just a mess. I'm going to take a walk and just calm down for now. A real special thanks to everyone who has offered to listen to me. I haven't contacted yet, but I will. Thanks once again.

Answer 1

are you still in school please let me know

Answer 2

the first thing i personally think is the best and the healthiest is to see a psychologist. (seeing a psychologist doesnt mean that you're a "psycho" or that you are an idiot, its just to have someone to talk to and someone who can help you figure out things one by one, and not just end your life without even trying)
Second I think you need to take things one by one. As it is obvious there are lots of different situations going on in your household. Try thinking if you can have a serious private conversation with your mother, and that if there is any way that you can let her know that you need help here. Maybe try finding a time when she's alone and not mad, or anything. If not, try some relatives, or people who are close to your mother, maybe they can get your point accross to her. For your father, as I can see he has a drinking problem, and unfortunately theres not a lot you can do other than try to get him some proffessional help. Third, when you think of suicide, you are probably overwhelmed, tired mad and frustrated of it all. Just think how God or whoever made all this made it for a reason. I dont mean to sound religious or anything like that, but your life does have a meaning, and we all are challenged by people or situations daily, some of us more than others. And its those challenges which make us stronger people. Stronger people which can survive hard overwhealming situations like yours. Just think that there is a way out to Everything, and a way out does not mean suicide. Ending your life is not going to do anything other than worsen things for you and others. Just think that you would be a better person for surviving this, than for giving up. Never give up. There's always a way out, and really consider talking to a psychologist, or someone close to you, a friend, or a teahcer, someone WILL understand. Good luck and be safe!

Answer 3

you are not rambling. you are scared. by what you say of your mom, she is probably going through a bad time with you dad, his drinking and all. she's not realizing that you are growing up and realizing a lot of things, you never realized before. it may not be a true problem your thinking about sucide - although at 18 a lot of people go through a depression stage, so don't feel desperate; but ,it may be a feeling of no one is there to care and listen to you. PLEASE, don't ever really think of sucide. that's not an escape - and truefully, no one ever believes or cares, because they only feel their own pain. instead get away from the situation that's causing you your pain. why not get involved with some volunteer work at your local hospital. it would get you away from the family enviornment for a while and put you mind on other things rather than what's hurting you at home. remember you are strong to yourself and don't let anyone strip you of self-confidence because they don't listen to you. you take a stand for yourself, realize that you are the most important person in your world and be kind to yourself. i hope you find only good things in your life. hang in there and i wish you all the best.

Answer 4

OMG you sound just like me....only HAPPIER! You wouldn't believe the sh)it I go through everyday. I suffer from bulimia, due to my being overweight caused by a cousin who bullies me all the time. My mother and I are ALWAYS arguing, my brother and I don't even talk to each other, I developed smoking, and all other sorts of problems. I'd suggest you and your mom get some counseling or something. Also, whenever I tell my mom I feel suicidal, she always says "Well if your that unhappy, maybe your better off dead" Seriously. This breaks my heart b/c she is my mom and she's supposed to be in my corner at all times. I feel suicidal, too, but I just try to pray and hold on to my pride and keep hope alive that one day things will change and get better. Best wishes

Answer 5

I don't think your rambling at all!.
First of all,your dad being an alcoholic is putting a real strain on your mom,which in return,she's taking it out on you (but she does'nt mean it). The person she married is no longer that person anymore. (Now) because your 18 (and you did'nt mention if you were still in school),I suggest if you are still in school,it might be a little difficult to concentrate on your school work,but pray and ask God to give you the strength to continue your studies,until you Graduate. In the meantime,try to find yourself a part-time job,to keep yourself busy.(Another suggestion), Do you have a friend or relative that you can stay with?. Someplace where there will be some peace and quiet?. I know your felling kind of alone right now,and there are times you fell,like your caring the whole world on your shoulders. If you can "move out",then that would be the best thing right now. Your parents are having problems,which involve THEM-NOT YOU!. Let them work it out on their own. You have to prepare yourself for your own future. (I''ll be praying for!)

Answer 6

Ooh, I hate talking about issues like this, as I was kind of in a similar boat. I wasn't really considering suicide that much, but I was severely depressed in the sense that I really didn't feel like doing much at all. I was 14 at the time, so suicide wasn't a real big thing I was considering, but I had all these tiny little things adding up to make my life terrible. My bird died, and he was very important to me and very smart and sympathetic and could be an animal sidekick on a t.v. series. My mom became far less wealthy after divorcing my rich stepdad, and my dad was about to get married to a woman he got engaged to after I only met her twice. On top of all this, the private school I was going to got way too hard and I quickly gave up on it altogether, and I got to the point where I didn't really go to school as much, and when I did, I had to fake all my usual energy and cheer. Everyday I wanted to get better, and just say "Today's the day I'm getting my life back, carpe diem!" but it just didn't happen. So I went to counseling and got some drugs, and of course it got to the point where I ended up going to the mental ward in the hospital. Surprisingly, that helped me the most. Being around kids I was more successful than made me feel better than anything else. I was connected to them, cared for them, talked about my feelings with them, and it was amazing experience that really made me grow as a person. I was put on Wellbutrin, which I took for a year and a half and have been off for about 6 months. Depression isn't something that magically gets better, and thinking about solving it really isn't what solves it. If you just take medicine, go to counseling, and just slowly try to live your life and lower your expectations (that last phrase was REALLY upsetting to me when I was depressed actually, but it's sadly true) you will get better. Don't think so much about the sad, but don't try to instantly get happy. Just do normal treatments, try to change the things you can and accept the things you can't, write out your feelings, and do what makes you feel better and don't think so much about trying to fight depression or getting happy or anything like that. Don't think about it so much. As for your parents, try telling them how you feel, and I know your parents are a little worried or overwhelmed and in denial. Eventually they'll try to help.

Answer 7

We all get depressed and have these feelings. Your mother's response was probably due more to the fact that she doesn't know what to do for you rather than her lack of caring. Many people use sarcasm and humor to hide weakness. And if she's had to deal with your dad's alcoholism for years she may have hardened herself to protect against the pain.

We all need someone to confide in, someone to listen to us complain, and to hear our dreams. Since you didn't replace your Mom with someone then maybe you need to find someone to talk to. More people than you could imagine seek counseling at sometime in their lives. Also, the chemicals in our brains are not always at perfect levels, so sometimes we need medicine to correct that. Do you think maybe you've changed in the last 6 months rather than your mom? At 18, you are changing from her child to a woman of her own. That is hard for moms to accept at first. I would call your doctor to make an appointment and discuss your thoughts. It sounds like you are holding your feelings in until you are alone? Why? It's not a sign of weakness to show feelings.....it's a sign of being human.

Also, your environment can effect your feelings. Do you hang with negative people? My complaining friends bring me down all the time so I limit my contact with them. I also started doing volunteer work. Helping someone can bring so much to your life.

My son was thinking about suicide the first of this year. In 8 hours they had diagnosed him and put him on two medications. Now he is in disbelief that he ever felt that way...he had forgotten what it was like to feel good and be himself. So if you need medication, get it. It can bring you back to being YOU.

At 18, you have your whole life to go yet....you are just getting started. Think of life as an adventure. You never know what is around the corner, could be good or bad, but there is gong to be so many great times ahead why take a chance on missing them?

Answer 8

First thing i'm going to tell you: please!! do not kill yourself!!! Every life is precious and shouldn't be wasted away like that!!! Instead of getting in an argument with her, sit her down and tell her how you feel. LEt her know that you would really love having a realationship with her. Your mother should then understand. Usually when people are in an argument, people are to overwhelmed with anger to listen to what the person they are arguing with is telling them. If you just sit her down you should be able to get through to your mom, YOu should also think about seeing your guidance counselor or a psychiatrist. I just hope you know that your life is precious and that you shouldn't have to kill yourself. THings will get better, god bless

Answer 9

Well honey I don't know what to tell ya,Just that life's hard,and will probably get harder,I know your mom didn't mean what she said,she just doesn't know what to say and alot of things are said in the heat of the moment,Maybe try to sit and talk to her when there aren't so many other things going on,and if you cant talk to her go to someone you trust even if its an old teacher or anyone pick up the phone if you have to talk to anyone tell them whats going on I sure they listen,and maybe you'll make a new friend out of it,DON'T GIVE UP THERE SO MUCH MORE OUT THERE!!!

Answer 10

We all need a friend somtimes, and we all go through hard times and depressions. you are not alone little sister, I to have absolutly no relationship with my father,(long story) delt with long ago. I have been through that seemingly endless phase of arguing with my mom, and now we share a good relationship again. any way im 34 years old. I know the hardships of life and I would love to listen to you if you need to talk. hop things get better for you. Oh my e-mail addy is [e-mail] and my im id is just jaznjava

Answer 11

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