When i was a kid. I know under 10, my mom babysat these 2 kids and there was a baby or a little older but under 5 if not a baby ( i can't remember clearly) and i think he was sleeping. Well, i got on top and don't know if i humped. Then when i was still young. I don't know how young maybe 8-11, I put my breasts in my cousins face when she was sleeping and she was really young too. but thats all i did and with the kid i got on top of, i am like 98% sure i had clothes on but see, it makes me feel like a bad person because i would never do this now well obviously but knowing i did it now makes me feel HORRIBLE! i obsess over it and people even tell me it's normal when you're young but you hear all these people talk about rape and i can't tell myself enough it wasn't rape. Then my mom said if i go to a councellor, they will have to tell the parents of the kid even though i was a kid myself. and i was like thanks alot, now it will make it seem like i am a bad person when i was a kid! I wish there was other people who did this exact thing and tell me how they deal with it and know they arn't a bad person. Sometimes people wonder what happened to me when i was younger because of certain things and what if people wonder or the kid wonders what happened to him. I mean i am pretty sure i had clothes on but i was a kid too but knowing they would have to tell the parents makes me feel 100x worse. I feel like i shouldn't be living!! or be able to be happy.
2006-09-26
17:12:08
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