I am a 26 year old woman who has suicidal thoughts at least twice a day. This has been going on for a while now. I am not sure if I will do it and I am not sure why I think this stuff.
Sometimes I feel like everything is bottled inside me and no one really knows what the real me is like. Everyone thinks I am happy, I always smile and joke but when I am alone this horrible feeling comes about and I don't know how to control it.
When I get like this, my tummy feels like its in knots, I almost feel sick with anxiety (thats what i think it is - anxiety) and I have no idea what causes this.
I have noticed that my suicidal thoughts are often (though not always) linked to wanting to make people feel bad for the horrible things that they have done to me. I just want to scream at them and say "Look at what you have done! See what you have pushed me too?"
Does anyone else feel this way? Please I don't want to hear that I need to get counselling, I have tried, it only makes it worse
2007-01-22
19:17:22
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