The thought of food disgusts me, but i eat cause i have to, whether it be from boredom of hunger or just the need im not sure but i feel so guilty when i do eat, i often eat in secrecy ad when i am asked what i have eaten i feel ashamed to have eaten, i dont eat in public because i know everyone is thinking look at that fat ugly cow like she needs to eat anymore food.I skip meals as often as i can i eat dinner every night cause my dad makes it for me and i cant not eat it, i eat lunch maybe 3 times or so a week and i never ever eat breakfast.Everytime after i eat something i think about throwing it up, its all i think about is just waiting till no one is around so i can.I havent thrown up since i was 9 and im 16 now and the thought of vomit is gross but if it means being thin id do it in a heartbeat.Could this be the start of something worse to come?
2006-09-10
03:07:19
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lily paige
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Mental Health