For the past few months, the only thing I have had on my mind is suicide. I cant stop thinking about just taking a knife to myself, or throwing myself in front of a truck/train/etc, or overdosing myself, or anything.
Seriously, I dont really want to kill myself sometimes. But sometimes I feel so horrible, I want to go along with these urges. I dont even know what to think anymore.
Before, when I felt this way, I could talk to some of my friends and they would help me feel better. Most of these friends either arent available, or wont talk to me.
I really dont want to kill myself. Im afraid that I will though. I should mention that I am schizophrenic/depressed/paranoid, and have been this way for two years. I have a history of suicide attempts.
I've been on too many meds to count. My therapists keep giving up on me. Im just a burden to everyone around me. I cant help but think that everyone would rather I was gone.
What should I do? idk what to think anymore.
2006-08-21
10:33:05
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trainboy765
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