Alright, please don't judge me, I recently experienced the loss of my mother, and my gay friend (male) was the only person there for me (I'm female). We slept in the same bed last night (not something unusual for us), but before we realized it we were naked and we were making love. Although I initiated it, he had a very active part in it (he was on top for a lot of the time), and neither of us really seemed to think about what we were doing. However, I think that he only agreed to do it with me because he wanted to try to make me feel better. I'm sure he's still 100% gay. And although we both enjoyed it, we both had big regrets in the morning.
I feel bad, not only because I had sex with my [blatantly] gay friend, but because I used physical pleasure to push my grief from my mind.
I am worried (as is he) that our friendship will never be the same. Is it possible that our friendship won't change, that we can look at this experience as a simple bump in the road of our friendship?
2007-12-28
14:43:00
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