I just have a hard time dedicating my life and time to God. I totally believe every word of the Bible. But I just can't seem to sit down and crack open a Bible for more than five minutes. And when I pray it's like I'm speaking to a brick wall, or I just start falling asleep or getting distracted in my thoughts. I've always wanted to ask my church leaders for help, but they have this misinterpretation of me as some real dedicated christian, and I feel ashamed to go and destroy this illusion. I always thought they'd just see right through me, but they don't.
Even when I do summon the courage, I don't know what to ask. I know Satan is just putting this in front of me, but I can't seem to get around it.
Now, because I've put it off, It's grow into apathy. Satan's convinced me I don't need God, and I can't help but feel that way. But I just have such a hard time staying focused in my prayers...
I know what I'm doing wrong, but at the same time I can't fix it.
2006-12-20
12:57:11
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