September marked 4 years since I lost my 1st child, she was my 1st pregnancy & her heart simply stopped during the 8th month. My second child was a year later, a boy who was 4 months premature, he managed to live for two days by being hooked up to machines. I watched them preform CPR on him several times from the moment he was born.On the 2nd day they informed us that it would be best for him to just unhook the machines and let him go. I had to give them permission to unhook the machines & could do nothing but hold him as he he died in my arms. Even though they convinced me it was best for him, I cant get over the fact that I basically let him die. Every single day I relive both of these events but I have to push my grief down,pretend to be happy - like neither happened. My husband & mother simply say to "let it go", "get over it, they're gone"...! You cant fully understand how it feels unless you've been through it yourself, from the Mothers point of view.How do you cope?
2006-11-06
08:02:37
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