hello, I am really down in the dump today, I do have depression and I am not on any medication, I tried some before but it didn't work and I don't want to have to depend on meds, but it seem's latley I am gonna have too, because im getting suicidal again.
Today is really bad, not sure why, or what triggered it, but I feel just ****** horrible, and frankly I am getting so sick of it! Why can't I just be happy, I have no reason too be upset, I am with a great man, escaped my abusive husband a few years ago, i feel like im moving on about the death of my mother, I have a good paying job, work long hours, but get paid well. But I still think of all the negative stuff, guilt, pain, paranoid, I turn too booze for release, lost all friends, dont want to talk to anyone..ugh i hate it. Death seem's to be my only escape..Why can't the pain just go away, I want to be normal again. Sorry this wasnent really a question, just needed to vent, i hope someone can understand this sh*t.
2006-09-22
04:12:05
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