I am 28 y/old Christian who grew up in a Christian home where love was shown, but kissing, hugging was never expressed between my parents.My mother never spoke of these things to me.
When I did start dating just kissing caused guilt. At 22 I lost my virginity; 23 was raped; 24 was assaulted; and at 25 had a very sexually agressive bf who did not respect me.Since I grew up believing guys only wanted 1 thing and so submitted to them without allowing sex because I felt I had no choice.Because of this I deal with depression and an eating disorder.With help I have been able to deal with much of the guilt.
I met a man I care about and, knowing my past, shows me respect and kindness. I chose to make love with him for the first time and I felt like I was worth being loved by a man and not just used for my body. How can this be wrong? Conviction not this feeling I am a unlovable person come from God. I am not asking for people to agree with my choice. I just need help w/t other guilt.
2007-07-14
08:25:21
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Megan M
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