Hello. I am a 24 yr old guy with lust problem. Today is probably one of the worst days in my life. After 1 week of abstinence from porn/masturbation, I relapsed again, giving into the lure of porn/mb. I can't stop but wonder at this point whether there is a hope.
I tried therapy, self-help book, filter, Internet Accountability software, hobbies, willpower and prayers. And yet, I still failed tonight. I am so depressed and heartbroken to even think about my slip tonight let alone my future dealing with this.
I wonder about God's intention for me. Why did God make me this way or vulnerable to porn/mb? Why did God bring me to this world if only to let me endure this unberable pains? I tried extremely hard to stay away from drugs, alcohol, tobacco, sex and succeeded in that. But not porn/mb. Why is God not intervening or helping me when I am suffering so much inside enduring struggles upon struggles?
2006-12-05
15:49:52
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