I know at first it sounds selfish, but I hope I die during childbirth. I think it'd be best for the baby in the long run. My family's great and would be able to take care of her. I have 7 siblings, the youngest is only 9 so she'd be like another kid in the family.
I just have no desire to live anymore and I know a baby shouldnt be around someone who is miserable and bitter. I never wanted kids, but I got pregnant and couldn't bear to kill a baby. I can't give it up for adoption, my bf would never sign off on that, my family would be pissed, and I wouldn't be able to live with myself anyways. Everything is gone now. My life, my relationship with my bf. I'm already angry and bitter about men, I don't want my daughter picking up on that. And I don't want to be around to see him stop by every once and a while for a play date while I bear the real responsibilities. I just don't see any options out of this. No matter what happens I look like the bad guy, so why not just die?
2007-09-07
14:29:34
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