First off, I know and realize that Im better off than alot of people, so then I ask myself, WHY do I feel like a total mess?!?! It just doesnt make sense. The last time I remember being truly happy was when I was 9. Im 20 now and things feel like the same old drowning routine. I know it has alot to do with circumstances, like at that point of my life, we moved all the way across state, new everything. It's like with the move, I left myself there. I feel even more horrible when I try to talk to my parents about how sad and hopeless I feel. All they ever say is that I need to stop being stupid and get working on what I need to do to get on with life. They completely shut me off, sending me even worse off. I dont want to be the typical "emo", "I hate myself!" person, but I just cant control my feelings. My parents always say that Im inconsiderate, irritable, rude, mean, selfish, ungrateful, etc. I love them so much, but I cant show them my love when all they do is look down on me........
2006-12-08
14:04:44
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