I need someone. please (depressed and Suicidal)?

Question

I am depressed and Suicidal, I am going to tell what the problems are. I remember when I was in school I had tons of friends, but Never a girlfriend, I have never had a relationship, I feel no one loves me, My mom and dad say they do, but that’s only because they made me. I have no friends, I never leave the house and every night I cry myself to sleep. I often think about ending it with a cup of bleach. I know the worst night will be my 18th birthday. At night I hear my consents telling me that, “No one loves me”, “you should just end it”, “18 years an never even a date? Your pathetic”, and so on like that. Is there something really that wrong with me? I think I did pretty well considering how I was raised. Please tell me I’m not the only one feeling like this, and or in the same social situation. Please, Every night for the past 2 weeks have been borderline to unlivable. I got black rings around my eyes from lack of sleep. Anyone out there that can relate? Man or woman.
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Sorry to re-post, but the last1 I added info I felt was to personal.

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thats all I got.

I feel a little better knowing that they’re a few others like myself.

To answer some Qs in no real order.

I am a High School Dropout.

In High School I had tons of friends.

I have had a part-time job, but got board and did some stuff and was fired.

I am ok most of the days, its just when I get ready to sleep the problems resurface.

I'm feeling a lot better now, I'm not gonna see a Dr.
I know I'm very VERY "Insane" "Crazy" But thats just how/who I am. The Loveless problems only help keep me harder, an ready to deal with any problems people got with me. I do have hobbies n stuff, I will Eventually be a Music Producer, and the pain and sadness help me from time to time to create some of my best work. Just sometimes it builds up and gets a bit much and I need to vent. It helps me very much to know that there are others out there like myself to a degree. As long as I keep myself distracted with the music thing I should be okay. And my true goal is to be successful and a music producer, DJ, Emcee. And hopefully help others like me when they listen to my stuff. There are plenty of people that grew up like me, and they can relate to most of my problems, The Q in this topic is only about a tenth of my troubles. But I will keep living to enlighten others about the real problems that face the less fortunate, and Lonely.

Answer 1

im 25 and im basically going through the same thing as you... ive never been on a date i rarely leave my house and ive lost contact with all my friends since high school.. so i know what your going through and how you feel but.. taking your life isnt gonna solve a thing its actually gonna make things worse for the people who actually do care about you. i know you think people dont love you but they do.. im SURE OF IT.! so... think about it b4 u decide to make a mistake that u wont be able to fix....

Answer 2

Dude I know this might seem like it doesn't make sense, but you honestly have the best days of your life ahead of you. I was the same way until I got into my 20's and then things really got a lot better. Trust me life is not even begun by 18. It's also not hard to get help, most people have some sort of depressed times in their life, you just have to be tough and rough through it because once you get a little older you'll see things can get a lot better when you have more control over your own life. I didn't have a girlfriend before I was 19, and at the time that seemed bad, but trust me having a girlfriend isn't all it's cooked up to be. Try to get some help or just stay positive and know that things WILL get better! I hope that helped a little. Just know that a lot of people have felt the same way, and come out of it and are very glad they did. Hang in there.

Answer 3

Friend, Depression is a disease like any other disease.You need help with it maybe medication or just a doctor to talk things over with.It isn't something to be embarassed about.You say nobody loves you,but the people on this site sure seem to!you say you have never had a girlfriend before,maybe it's because you haven't found anybody worthy yet.you said that you get these feelings when you go to sleep at night. Thats because you are always thinking about it.Do not think negative try thinking about positive things.Oh yeah and this is coming from someone who attempted suicide! Iwas highly depressed at one time.Iam a good looking guy that has had some beautiful girlfriends, lots of friends and money. Everybody was shocked when I attempted it. They couldn't figure out why I would do that and neither could I until I was forced to see a psychiatrist.let me tell you Iam some glad I didn't succeed.After 6 months talking to a doctor my whole Life changed FOR THE BETTER! Ihave a beautiful girlfriend and one handsome son now you will get yours TRUST ME...Go and see a doctor it's the best thing you can do for your self and loved ones... If you need to talk get me at [e-mail]

Answer 4

You are definitely not the only person in your situation. Trust me, it only SEEMS like everyone else has a girlfriend/boyfriend. You will realize this when you're older and look back on your teenage years. Those years really suck for a lot of people. I was a very unpopular teenager....no boyfriend, not even many friends, and I was miserable. Once I got out of the hell that was high school and moved on into adulthood (the great equalizer :) life got much better, and it will for you too. However, the fact that you are actually suicidal leads me to believe that you need more than just some reassuring words from someone like me. Please see your school counselor or a teacher that you like and trust and let them know that you are feeling this way so they can help you before you do something that would hurt those who love you and rob you of the happy life that can be yours someday if you can just hang on through the crappy parts. (And by the way...I'm certain your parents love you a lot more than you think they do, and not just because they "made" you.)

Answer 5

My thoughts go out to you. I've been in a similar place as you so to speak. I would never compare my experience to yours as all that does it puts it about me. I just know that things will get better for you. I agree with everything everyone else has said. Therapists are great people to talk to, but if you're feeling bad presently, there are hotlines that exist 24/7. You seem like a good guy, and I doubt I'm the only one who thinks that. Also, do you know how many people haven't had a date before age 18? I read somewhere that Jennifer Garner, who is now married to Ben Affleck, was seen as a geek in high school. We all go through difficult times, some worse than others.

Lastly, nights can be harder than daytime, and winter harder than spring as it's dark outside. I have faith in you.

Answer 6

I've felt some things what you're feeling, except for the bleach part. Don't focus on what you don't have, it'll make you feel like $hit. Believe me, I know!

Just because you haven't dated doesn't make you pathetic. It's normal...just wait...your time will come. I'm almost 18 too and as time goes on I feel the same way, just sitting and waiting for when my turn will come. I do like someone, but I have to wait until I get enough courage to find out if they feel the same. What holds me back are my religious beliefs---usually people of my religion don't have bf/gf's before they're married (but a lot do), but it still doesn't help me from feeling left out. So you're not the only one who hasn't dated at the age of 18. You're whole life is ahead of you!

Just because your friends are dating it doesn't mean they're happy. I'm sure there are things that make them cry at night too. Everyone has a dark secret, and it's OK. It's not bad to cry, it feels better after you cry. I know it's hard to be around everyone who is dating...even the biggest LOSERS are dating! (It goes to show you anyone can get a bf or gf). You know you're cool, it's not like you have no friends. There is somebody for everyone. I'm 100% you're not the only one with these feelings. It's not the end of the world. Now that you're out of school, are you feeling worse? Get something to do, to help take your mind off things, and who knows, you could meet someone new. And even though you think you're parents don't care, believe me, they care, and they wouldn't want to lose you.

Answer 7

Well, i am a girl and it's hard to say that i fully understand. But i never dated until i got to college anyway and I know a lot of people that had never dated either. But it's not that extreme to the point where you should take your life. I think it's the people you surround yourself with. Why do you listen to them anyway? There's so much more to life than finding a mate. I know at time when we're lonely, we want someone there and also we want to know that we're special to somone other than our family. It's natural to want that but don't harm yourself or think that you're worthless just because there isn't someone there.
Hmmm... I have been told that you can never really enjoy a relationship unless you learn to love yourself first. Maybe what it is is that you should take care of yourself. Boost your self exteem up.
I've only had one boyfriend in my life and he's now my ex. I dated people but just haven't found the right person yet. I am 21 and at times i do want a relationship but i know there's more to life than just that. The way i see it, if i am willing to end my life, why not use it for a greater cause. Use it to make a difference in other people's life. Don't be so depress... Most of the time depression is just a thought. If you change your outlook on life, you will end up feeling better too. Besides, you're like what? 17? Oh my goodness... you're probably not even fully grown yet. I wasn't all that attractive when i was that age but i've changed and i am sure you will too. Just try to love yourself before you try to love others. Because if you're insecure or become clingy, chances are they'll end up leaving you even if you are in a relationship.
But mainly, please don't kill yourself. It's really not worth it. Things might seem bad at times but there future is ahead. Just have hope that it will change and you're the one with the power to change it. You can either be depress and waste your life away or look to the future and make the most of your life.
If you neeed to talk more, email me. GOOD Luck!

Answer 8

Hey man, i felt that way a lot before and i was in the same situation for a while. I've never been on a date and many people say i'll never get one but what changed me was the fact of reading the bible. I don't know if your religious or not, but it seemed to help me, and in doing this i was able to meet some people were i actually felt like i had some friends, so hang in there cause it will get better, it just sometimes takes time.

Answer 9

OK your right you are depressed and without seeing a Dr it will not get any better and you say you have no friends is that because you cut your self off or you just don't click sounds crazy but when i was in school i didn't get along with people my own age but when i met people older we clicked now my son is opposite he does better with people younger whats more heartbreaking is you cry your self to sleep wow can you talk to your parents maybe read or watch t.v till you pass out something to occupies your mind so you wont feel alone and honey no law that says you have to date by18 i swear take your time be choosy cup of bleach no don't do that you have your whole life ahead of you and it will get better start by seeing a Dr good luck

Answer 10

I just want to let you know that i can relate you some of the things you said...but first things first you should get some professional help so that you can communicate you feelings properly...your parents love you they really do and don't ever think that they wouldn't, you are their child and would do anything for you.

now about the other things like the friends and relationships...friends come and go all the time...maybe they weren't the best friends to choose if they didn't keep in contact with you after you dropped out...new people will come into your life all the time you just have to put a little effort into meeting them.

one last thing...I'm 22 and I didn't get my first boyfriend till I was 19...I went though all of middle school and high school totally unrecognized...it wasn't until I was out of school and I got a job and met a really nice guy that I wanted to date...I made the effort to get to know him and we started to date...Don't feel bad about being a late blommer....I was and I thougth I was going to be alone all my life because i didn't have a BF....i feel stupid for even thinking like that.

I hope that I helped you a bit and if you need some some to talk to you can contact me....hope you find your peace.

Answer 11

You need to do two things; tell your parents how you are feeling and get some professional counseling to help you with your pain.

It is sad that you think so low of yourself, you have little self-esteem. You need to start talking back to their voices that are negative and bringing you down. Tell them to shut up and replace them with positive things.

Just because you haven't had a date that does not make you unlovable or worthless. So what? A date is just going somewhere with someone. Have you ever asked anyone out? Why don't you have friends, don't you bother to talk to people?

In order to change your life, you need to make the effort. People who don't know you will not start ringing your door bell seeking you out.

Begin to change your life first by seeking out a good counselor to help you discuss why you are in this position now. The sooner you do, the happier you will be. Take care. I wish you the best and I will pray for you. Just remember, God loves you very much and cares about what happens to you.