i have major depressive disorder and after years of hospitalizations, shock treatments, a suicide attempt, i finally found a medicine that works fairly well. but i haven't been doing well lately. i'm married to a really wonderful man, but i cannot feel that i love him. i don't think separating is a good idea for me. i'm completely dependent upon him, financial, emotionally, etc. but i feel totally alone. i feel i have nothing to enjoy in life. boredom, loneliness and sexual frustration led me to talking to guys on the internet, and i've developed feelings for and attachment to someone with whom i have no future. it is nothing but misery; i agonize over him all day. i haven't spoken to him in a couple of days in effort to get over it and refocus my priorities, but i just feel so much worse. i'm Christian and i've been praying about this, but it's not working. i'm feeling suicidal and considering going back in the hospital, but i've been that route and it doesn't do any good.
2007-02-09
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