My bf & I finalized things last night. After 4 years, he is now officially my ex. We got rid of all the bad blood & resentment and agreed that the breakup isn't for lack of love or effort. We each just have things to work out in our lives. I was certain that having that talk would be the 'cure all' I needed. I guess not, because I still had that ache inside of me when I woke up this morning. It's for the best, I know, but how do I get myself out of this funk? I miss him US so very much, it hurts. I just want to be able to walk into a store or drive on a highway without some memory coming to haunt me. The pain? It's almost physical. I literally have to take deep, slow breaths sometimes because I feel like my chest might explode. I want to stop crying all the time. I want to be ok with the fact that there's no 'us' anymore. He's ok. He bounced right back up. Why can't I? I'm not a weak person, At 28, I've pulled myself through a lot of crap in life. What's wrong now? Why is this so hard?
2006-10-24
07:02:26
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