When I was in a third to 5th grades, I kept having a crush on every single girl that I wanted to date, kiss, whatever. As I started to grow older, I was exposed to some sexual relations with my distant cousins and neighbors who were all boys. At first it was gross, but I quickly got used to it, because it was all "part of the game". When I was about 13, 14, I remember a strong attraction towards men. At 16 I wanted to date one. I started studying sexuality and quickly adopted the label "gay". I dated guys, broke up with them many times, have been in abusive relationships and never got what I needed out of them. Than, at about 21, I started to feel like I didn't want to do anything with guys anymore, but the idea of me being "gay" kept me from discovering my attraction towards girls which I've kinda left at my 5th grade. Now, I'm 24 and I feel grossed out by all the things I ever did with guys, and feel an extremely strong attraction towards women. No one believes me, but I'm not gay!
2007-07-05
18:44:39
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Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender