I have severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and this influences many things in my life. Unlike some people with OCD, I not only have to have physical things a certain way, I need to think certain thoughts in order to, say, close a door. For example, when I close a door, the moment it closes I have to be thinking something positive. But, my OCD is so severe that I have secondary thoughts while thinking the positive thoughts that I don’t purposely think, like "I’m going to die soon," or some sort of blasphemous thought. I need to think the opposite of what the secondary thought is for me to complete a bout of OCD (while the secondary thought is still there). It’s like I’m sharing my mind with the voice of Satan. I don't really think what my OCD makes me think, but the amount of blasphemies committed by my secondary thoughts is innumerable. I am planning on converting to Catholicism and being baptized after I get rid of my OCD, so that I can start with a clean slate that I can control.
2007-05-18
08:49:17
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