I am not an atheist by choice. In fact, I was fighting tooth and nail to save my faith when I became an atheist.
I read the Bible every single day, keeping the idea of God first and foremost in my mind.
I spent hours a day, every day, in quiet meditation of the world and of Jesus. At times anger would flow and I would scream and demand He do something, others times utter capitulation, begging and pleading that he would save me. I would meditate on the vision that blasted me to my knees and convicted me of my sins when I was Born Again and left me sobbing for hours because I knew I was nothing without Christ.
I went on prayerful retreats most weekends to be surrounded by well rooted and well taught believers.
I surrounded myself with prayer circles and Bible studies.
Yet God never answered, and so against my will at the time, I found myself an atheist.
I did not choose to be an atheist.
So, what would you recommend I try different to try to reclaim my faith?
2007-02-23
02:58:04
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