I am hestitant to ask a such a question as this, because it could mean being honest with myself, and setting myself up for ridicule, but I have chosen to do so, and accept what the consequences may be.
As a child growing up I was conditioned to survive through dysfunction, drama, and the pain that is created from that. It was through this pain that I was able to experience myself. Now as an adult I tend to create drama around me, because I justify it as a means of success. You see if there is nothing to overcome then how do you know what you have accomplished. I always thought that conflict was something I had to have in order to value myself, or measure my self worth. I keep one foot in one world and the other foot in the next. Should I stay should I go? Afraid to take a step foward, backwards, and just to take a step. I have chosen a profession of healing(massage therapy) and I am very capable of healing others, but I cannot heal myself. I know the answers are within, but I do not
2006-11-02
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fryedaddy
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