i dont know how to start , but i will give it my best shot to make it clear , please dont judge ,make assumptions , or insult me.Something has been going on inside of me lately.Its deep!
i remember when i was 15 i kept two different diary's.One for the ordinary events , and other where i put all my spiritual insights , thoughts and teachings from the bible since i was a Christian back then.Becoming a nun first went into my mind , when i realized that whatever i had to experience in the real world will never satisfy me , since i am someone who needs great spiritual satisfaction first than any other satisfaction , and at the same time gods will working through me , and helping other people sounds a lot better to me than "living in the world"
but lately Christianity is not doing it for me .too much of a dogma! but with buddhism i have been experiencing the deepness and richness i have always wanted in my spiritual life , but its not enough , now at 19 i still want to become a nun , a buddhist nun, but i was cheking the local monastery and they dont allow women?
what do i do ? i feel gods call and i wanna answer.I dont care or feel like my life depends or that i need a
guy, parties or whatnot.i am a virgin and do not desire to marry or have children.....what do
i do ?
2007-11-12
09:37:01
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