whats going on?

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i dont know how to start , but i will give it my best shot to make it clear , please dont judge ,make assumptions , or insult me.Something has been going on inside of me lately.Its deep!
i remember when i was 15 i kept two different diary's.One for the ordinary events , and other where i put all my spiritual insights , thoughts and teachings from the bible since i was a Christian back then.Becoming a nun first went into my mind , when i realized that whatever i had to experience in the real world will never satisfy me , since i am someone who needs great spiritual satisfaction first than any other satisfaction , and at the same time gods will working through me , and helping other people sounds a lot better to me than "living in the world"
but lately Christianity is not doing it for me .too much of a dogma! but with buddhism i have been experiencing the deepness and richness i have always wanted in my spiritual life , but its not enough , now at 19 i still want to become a nun , a buddhist nun, but i was cheking the local monastery and they dont allow women?
what do i do ? i feel gods call and i wanna answer.I dont care or feel like my life depends or that i need a
guy, parties or whatnot.i am a virgin and do not desire to marry or have children.....what do
i do ?

none of you guys are really helping .all you care about is imposing your beliefs on me , without a clue of what is going on inside me.im outta here

Answer 1

Please read this man's story:

http://www.near-death.com/storm.html

Answer 2

I would step back and look at what you really want. Try to talk to other people. Maybe even talk to a nun. If you can't be a Buddhist nun then there's nothing you can do about that. I know what you mean about spiritual satisfaction. I have been searching for a while now and have found Catholicism works for me. Becoming a nun is a big deal, take you time. But if you decide to be a nun, I think Christianity is the only religion with female nuns, live a little first see whats out there. At least wait till your 21.

Answer 3

I understand you feeling the need for spiritual connection, and also relate to you outgrowing the bs associated with the christian baloney. I did the christian thing for many years as a youth and if anyone should've gotten brainwashed it should have been me, but very early on, I saw that it wasn't right...that I was too much of a free and intelligent thinker to get caught up in it. I am a good person and people often say " you must be a Christian" and this kills me cause I know that there are so many people who are very cool, nice, generous, intelligent, and wise and they don't have to be christians to find this for their lives...but Christians don't get it...they just want toss around the word "atheist" like it's some kind of scourge"
About Buddhism, I know a woman who recently completed her training as a Buddhist preist, so the possibilities are out there. Maybe you could learn more via the net?

Answer 4

Some people find themselves deeply called into a spiritual life and you seem to be one of these people. Buddhism does provide opportunities for women to ordain as nuns and look deeply into their lives. Here's a quick overview of what you can do:

Theravadan Buddhist: Theravadan Buddhist traditions (mostly from Southeast Asia) sometimes make it very difficult for women to ordain. Unless you are ethnic Thai or Cambodian, this may not be the route for you.

Vajrayana Buddhism: This version of Buddhism from Tibet does accept women as fully-ordained nuns. The Dalai Lama is the best known Tibetan Buddhist and he has ordained many women, as have other lamas.

Mahayana Buddhism: The best-known Mahayana tradition in the West is the Zen tradition (China, Korea, Japan) and women can fully ordain as nuns in the Zen tradition.

Neither Vajrayana nor Mahayana traditions, to my knowledge, will automatically ordain any woman who shows up at the door. First, you must establish a connection with a center or temple and begin practicing there regularly. Talk with the teacher about your aspiration to ordain. Each teacher have particular qualifications for ordination. In the Zen tradition, for example, students are often expected to practice with a teacher for several years before ordaining as a novice.

A first step would be to go and live at a residential practice center. These exist in both the Zen and Tibetan traditions. This will help you find out what it's like to focus your life on your spiritual quest. You'll know within a year or two whether or not this is your life's direction.

The link below will take you to a list of Buddhist centers in the United States. Some of these will have residential centers, or be affiliated with residential temples. Do some exploration. It's one thing to read about good food, it's another thing to eat it. Enjoy!

Answer 5

I believe it's inside you if you wish to be a monk of sorts you don't need a church a true religion must bare fruit so you must as well you are still young and have lots of time before you make any rash decisions follow the teachings and try volunteering all sorts of rewarding stuff like that and in a couple of years the monestary may change there mind be persistent and ask them why they don't allow women it may take awhile but you may just choose not to be part of any religion in the end to me I always found it hard believe women would choose religion

Answer 6

I don't know where you live. so, it would be difficult to recommend a monastery. Should you be near San Diego or New York, you may want to consider a retreat to start. After that, you may request an extended stay. Here they teach ENGAGED Buddhism.

Follow your instincts and do not allow others to try and dissuade you. Have you considered Buddhist Chaplancy?

Answer 7

I used to be like you (except I was raised Hindu). I have studied Buddhism extensively (I even went to Bodh Gaya and was a guest at a monastary for 3 months) and I came to the conclusion that living the monastic life isn't all what it is cracked up to be. All it is is a few sacrifices, people bring you food and ask for your blessings. It's a social role. Of course, that's in asian countries, I don't know how it works in the U.S....never found a Buddhist monastary here ever.

I feel the same way about life...I mean I'm getting married next year, but with a guy who understands my lack of desire to have kids. I didn't even consider marriage as ever an option in my life...or even boyfriends until the past few years.

What I did is not define myself by a religion, but by a spiritual path. This heavily includes eastern religions: Daoism, Buddhism, Jainism that emphasize the cultivation of the mind and spiritual self instead of the cultural shackles of religion.

I don't believe in a single God though, nor does Buddhism. The Buddha never watned to be worshipped as a God, but recognized as an Enlightened Being, something he wanted everyone to strive for.

I believe in a higher power, but not an all-powerful Destroyer/Creator God. I believe in a God that pervades all of us, that we all are part of. We all interact with every little being in the universe to create a bigger system. We are cells in a large body.

OF course, this is how I see things. And this is a conclusion I only came to in the middle of college after studying Religion (one of my majors) and lots of thinking. Good luck with finding yourself, and don't despair~

Answer 8

Don't give up, just continue your search for a WAY that WILL fulfill you. We ALL have that ONE special belief system that just seems to resonate with us. Despite what SOME folks will tel you, there is NO one size fits all Religion and we AL must come to deity in our OWN special way. A way that leaves us fulfilled and establish a deep, lasting relationship with Deity. When you find it, you'll know right away that is the one way for YOU. If you encounter roadblocks then that's a good sign that the way you have tried to explore is NOT for you. So, just continue your search.

BB,
Raji the Green Witch

Answer 9

I'll try and not sound too cynical, but... Try New Age. They claim to be very spiritual, and the philosophical ideas they throw at you are ENDLESS!

Also truthless, but it'll keep you busy anyway. I'm not a big fan of New Age.

However, if it is spiritual satisfaction you are looking for, it does provide a spiritual source which you can change to your own ends. You can simply find your own spiritual way without having to join any religion, is what I am trying to say.

As astrologers would say, you seem to have a unaspected Neptune. :p

Answer 10

I am a Christain...If you are not happy switch churches!!! You will be pleasently surprised with a Spirit Filled one!! Try Assembly Of God!!! You will be a great tool for God!! As all these usual desires will not stop you from doing what he wants you to. How about missionary trips...You will get a new perspective on faith going on those. Please don't give up on God...Maybe you are bored because you are not doing enough!

Answer 11

The one person in here who could help you is Vinslave.

http://answers.yahoo.com/my/profile;_ylt=ApdB.rgj5Vq9OHjjvGKtWR3d7BR.;_ylv=3?show=71afbaedac2a285cf2c6b5606a092e32aa