I love God, with all my heart. The issue with me is that about 2yrs ago, i backslid quite a bit, after being so full on for Him, and so involved in ministry (and now i live abroad with no church). I have never forsaken my beliefs in my heart, but i stopped living out my convictions.
I so despersately want to be close with God again, and i know i dont need church to be a christian. its just great to be there, but i cant get to a church which speaks english.
I want to serve God in everything i do, but its so hard. i feel like im a lone island in a very big ocean. i cant go to my husband about this, hes agnostic. tell me, is anyone going thru the same?
God is everything to me. i just want to be his light in the darkness, but i have to overcome the things that hold me back. and conquer my flesh. and no matter how close i want to be with God, and pray every day, i keep stumbling when it comes to reading the word, even though i crave it!! i guess i just need some encouragement atm.
2007-10-17
01:54:18
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