I'm 3 weeks away from returning to work after a year of maternity leave. I know practically every mother must go through this, but as the higher income in my family, and the one with all the benefits as each day passes I find myself getting more and more depressed and angry that I need to return to work and can't stay home with my baby.
It's not rational and I know it... I knew our situation all along, but it's like I'm suddenly blaming my husband for the fact that I have to go back (because he doesn't have a better job than I do.)
I've found a great in-home daycare run by a friend of mine. I know my baby will be in good hands, but no hands are as good as mine. It kills me to think that I have to pay someone gobs of money to do something that I desperately wish I could be doing myself.
I read somewhere that you actually have to mourn the loss of the dream of staying home with your baby and then get over it, but seriosuly how long does that take and how do you do it?
2006-10-23
10:57:44
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