I began digging myself a hole where i only hated life, myself & ppl, but as I grew older I began drinking 2 escape, weekend were looked 4ward 2 only 2 wait 4 that first drink & get trashed 2 throw life away. Beginning & introducing drugs in2 my life only caues more problems then started w/. Having my addictions take part of me I began failing at work, school, disrupting my family, hurting my loved ones, & killing myself, which was the only part I enjoyed doing. Knowing how unresponsible & unreliable ive become at work, im afraid of being fired. Not completing highschool & not having motivation will only hold me back in applying 4 colleges. Affecting my family beginning 2 cause them on giving up & throwing me out, im worried if happened i may hurt myself more 2 the point of death. Knowing the hell ive put myself in2 & how must it will take 2 get my life back, i dont want my life for i want death instead.
2007-02-22
17:38:10
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Ellen B
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