I so annoyed with myself and the place I live today!
I don't speak korean, Im living in a buddhist martial arts temple here and I feel alone, ignored, akward, crappy, edgey.
It may well be all my thinking thats created this bubble of wierdness that I feel when Im around some of the people here. I feel like they don't like me, don't involve me in anything, feel akward around me...even the ones who speak perfectly good english.
I feel miserable, I want to smile and be happy and perky but whenever I see the people(higher level than me) I feel akward and dont know what to say or do..i wan t to join them but feel inadequit. I feel like Im being moody all the time and isolating myself but no one seems to really care very much.
I want to just get up tomorrow morning with a smile, get on with my own things smiling, smile at anyone else and not keep thinking they're thinking horrible things about me. But I feel angry with them and have hateful feelings toward at least one of them. HELP!
2007-12-15
14:41:14
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tiger_spirit
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