I went back to school @ the age of 32, I feel like I'm wasting my life away. I've got no life, no kids, no girlfriend, I've got a part-time job. I don't know where my life is going. I feel like the only control I have is Suicide. I'm taking classes but I can't concentrate on reading and applying myself like I should. I'm so depressed all the time, I used to be very active, but eversince I got fired in '02 I've lost my zest for life. I'm not as motivated as I used to be. I gained all this weight, I go to bed late, 3, 4AM and wake up late, noon, 2pm. Sometimes I don't feel like getting up at all. I've pondered many ways of taking myself out. I have a gun. I've thought of connecting the garden hose to the muffler and put it in the car and let it run. I think it's a cleaner death than blowing my head off while laying in the bed. Carbondioxyde is much easier. Sometimes I want to live forever!!! I've gone to one of those free drepression clinics for help, they think I'm wasting their time.
2006-07-04
11:01:52
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Roy R
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Mental Health