Since young I had an inexplicable attraction to some female frns. Usually close frns at first, then it moves onto the romantic side, sometimes I would think about going on dates..holding hands..heck even rather erotic fantasies and dreams (yes wet dreams..)
My problem is, I really want to stop thinking this way, it gets really heartbreaking.. cos
1)I live in an asian society, its not easy for myself to accept being lesbian, much less dare own up to parents/relatives/frns..
2)I had fessed up to 2 gals that I really liked (2 separate occasions of cos) but I got ignored/avoided etc, I am thankfull none of them told my family or like spread gossips etc...but it was very very very heartbreaking..I felt like a disease..
3)I find it gets in the way..I wan to keep my frns.. I dont want to keep thinking wildly about a frn..feel unbearable..then repeat 2) over and over again..
In short.. I just wan to stop having les thots!!! its making my mind crazy! How can I ever do it?
2006-07-03
04:19:54
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acnemycin
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Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender