I was once in love online with a terminally ill girl. We talked voice for hours and we shared many laughs. We wished we could be together at least once in our lifes but knew that would never happen. It tore me apart and I wished I could die with her. I cried at work, I cried at night until I could not take it anymore. We broke it off.
I try, tried, to be her online friend still. She is so lonely, depressed and online is all she has. Her latest words sent me in distress, she said to me: "I just wanted some body that would stand by me through anything and maybe something to look forward too or dream about". "But now its like a bog black hole going nowhere".
What should I do? It pains me so much because I know I caused her this pain. I feel guilty. I wish I could be there for her but all we ever had was online. It tore me apart in an already difficult world for me. I wished I could see her but I can not get a hold of her when it is needed.
What can I tell her? What can I do?
2006-10-14
13:10:47
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