My mom and I do not talk. To keep this short(ish) please know that it's for many reasons, and it's the best thing for my family. My mom is dangerous, a bad influence and has hurt me deeply in the past but will not admit or appologize for any of the harm she has caused me. In fact, when I used to still speak to her, she flaunted the times she hurt me, throwing them in my face.
My question is complicated. Have you faced death as a Christian? My mom is a Christian, so am I. She just found out she has lung cancer, both lungs, very progressed. She probably doesn't have long, has refused treatment. With me so far?
I want to write to her if it will help HER, not so much me. I want to tell her she is forgiven by me for the sins against me. I do NOT need her forgiveness. I no longer plan to ask her about the sins, she will lie or turn it to blame me. If you have ever gotten close to death, would this help? I worry that in her very final hours, she will want my forgiveness?
2006-06-06
08:41:36
·
16 answers
·
asked by
WriterMom
6
in
Cancer