employed, never made any friends.....i have bpd. so everyones gonna percieve me as a sad lonely guy to feel sorry for, and i dont wanna be percieved like that. yet because of my circumstances thats how ill be percieved....all ive known is pain, trauma, abuse, victimization and bullying.
i feel like im the only one whos had it this bad.
today i keep myself locked in doors because of high levels of anxiety and panic, and rage.....im scared of going out incase i lose it or have a rage outburst.
so i spend every lonely , waking day in my apartment. worrying frantically, racing thoughts. extreme lows and depression. weathering the bpd.
my psychiatrist doesnt feel i need any meds, because there addictive and no meds work for bpd. but im beggining to wonder about this.
i keep dwelling on my past, the fact ive missed out big time, never made any friends, never had a girlfriend, never been employed. and yet i wont give up because i have ambition i wanna reach. to emigrate from uk.
2007-08-05
00:57:30
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