my whole life i have never "fit in"..i grew up in 14 foster homes with tons of abuse/ rejection..my adult life has been a little better but not much..i have PTSD, dysthemia .. have been in therapy for 7 years and on meds..my last date was in sept of 1991...its not like i havent been out there...have been on 8 online dating sites...plenty who want just sex but none that want a relationship..i have declined in health and am now on disability..i have come to the point that ppl are self centered, mean and i hate going out in public..im homely and have gained wt on top of it..i have casted out friends that were harmful and am now left with nothing..i am buddhist, dont believe in suicide..but i no longer wish to live and i pray for death..i no longer now how to look at life..im sick of being thrilled about trees, birds, my animals..i no longer wish to get hurt by humans..is there such a thing of someone who there is just no hope for? no need for? a drain?
2006-08-28
16:36:16
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duchess727272
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Mental Health