I never had much positive reinforcement growing up. I was a target for bullies, girls shunned me. I felt like crap most of my early life. I didn't have a girlfriend until I was 18, that relationship lasted 2 years, and I should never have been involved with this girl. She is IMHO a sociopath. However, losing her seriously ruined my confidence, what little I had anyway. To try to ease the pain of the suddon loss of intimacy, I very stupidly turned to internet porn to try to fill in the intimacy gap I was experiencing. It's now 5 years later and I haven't been involved with a woman in that time (although I have been rejected plenty of times) and I am still addicted to the porn. I try to kick the habbit, I know it's disgusting. I hate it. I can't seem to kick it though. I see the world passing me by, and my ability to pull myself together is rapidly deteriorating. No one knows my situation. Not even my family. I don't know what to say to women. What they want. Does anyone have any advice?
2006-08-26
13:03:02
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